everyone around me is excited and i’d never thought the feeling that i’d be feeling is fear.
my heart is beating ten time more than usual and i feel like i’m going to explode.
i don’t know if i’m scared that i’m making a bad decision or if i’m scared that i’m about to start the rest of my life.
i don’t think i’m ready. i don’t think i’ve ever been ready.
and it hurts to know that i’m scared because this was the one thing that i’ve been wanting ever since i started middle school.
if you had asked my freshman self, just four years ago (!), if i wanted to pack up and move and skip straight to college, i would’ve looked you in the eye, my hair big and curly, my eyeliner dark and smudged, my face defiant and confident, and i would’ve said yes.
but now, i feel like i’m littler than ever, younger than ever, more naive than ever.
i don’t think i can do it. i can’t do it. but i have to and that makes me sadder than ever.
maybe it’s the combination of saying goodbye to people i don’t want to say goodbye to (i know it’s not a final goodbye, but everyone knows everyone doesn’t come back from college the same person) and the fact that i’m counting down the hours that i’m about to start something that i’ve been avoiding that’s overwhelming me.
i don’t even know what i’m saying anymore. tomorrow feels more ominous than it should.
I AM MORE SCARED THAN I HAVE EVER BEEN IN MY LIFE.
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“baby bro ngo: “is it me or does it smell like updog in here?”
sister ngo: “what’s up dog?”
baby bro ngo: “NOTHING MUCH DOG, HOW ‘BOUT YOU?”—LOOOL i’m happy my brother watches the office at such a young age.
9.) I get really physical uncomfortable when things are not balanced out, like if someone taps me on my left side twice, I’d have to secretly tap myself in the exact spot twice, but on my right side, or else I’d be really bothered for the rest of the day.
8.) I don’t like going to the movies because the loud noises make me jump and I feel like people think I’m a pussy for jumping.
7.) My eyebrows are uneven.
6.) I always find myself attracted to unconventionally good looking people, but I always end up dating conventionally good looking people!
5.) I used to play the clarinet and flute!
4.) I don’t think I’m good at making friends and I don’t think I’m good at keeping friends, but no one hates me hahaha
3.) I’m weaksauce LOL
2.) I can move my nose and I think I can move my ears but everyone tells me I’m just moving my eyebrows up and down.
1.) I really love Harry Potter. LIKE. REALLY. REALLY. LOVE.
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
1.) I’m sooo glad we got to hang out again! I thought you were mad at me for so long, haha, regardless, my time with you was quite enjoyable.
2.) When you leave, I’m going to miss you more than I’ve missed anyone who’s left or will miss anyone who’s leaving. I wish we had more time together, but what happened happened and I don’t regret it.
3.) Whyyyyy are you sooooo annoying? I really dislike dramatic people, especially dramatic people that randomly throw fits without any said cause!
4.) Stop trying to hang out with me, I don’t want to hang out with you! I think I’ve made it pretty clear without saying it in direct words.
5.) I dislike you a lot. LOL I think you’re incredibly annoying and I don’t like that you copy the way I do things and then pretend to be genuine about it. The more cute you try to act the less cute you actually are.
6.) Sorry for being a bad role model :/ You’re a better person that I will ever be.
7.) I LOVE YOU. Thank you so much for loving me right back.
8.) I know I may ignore you sometimes, but, honestly your situation is so difficult I don’t even know what to say! I really want to help, but there’s no way I can help besides by making you laugh. I’m sorry, but I love you and I’ll be there for you always!
9.) I’m sad that you’re gone, but to be honest, I’m kind of relieved also.
i forgot about my other challenge, so i guess i fail that one ):
ONTO THE NEXT ONE.
Can you do this?
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now. Day Ten: One confession.
“The human life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. And then there are the choices that matter. Love or hate. To be a hero or to be a coward. To fight or to give in. To live. Or die. Live or die. That’s the important choice. And it’s not always in our hands.”—Derek Shepherd - Grey’s Anatomy (via quote-book)